Story of My so called life

Well..diz morning I woke up with my not only swelling feet but my eyes too huhu...jenuh I letak concealer to cover the swelling around my eyes so that xde la obvious sgt nampak but mmg xblh cover dah...sampai2 opis jer a few staff dah tanya..what's wrong with my eyes??? blablabla yada yada.....huh!!! not that i know why!! mmg bangun2 je tidur dah jadi camni...bengkak macam org baru lepas nangis but I'm not crying pun..rasa2nya penyebab mlm tadi tidue lewat kot...me n hubby cakap lama sgt kot kat phone..

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 Alamak..muka I nampak sebelah jerk..

I heart u B...muka B yg agak ketat sbb tension jln jammed hehe..

I miss him muchos..my hubby blk kampung sbb skrg ni pun cuti sekolah so xkan nak duduk kat tg.karang sorg2 so dia blk la kampung...Cian hubby n myself too..after married je terus tinggal asing2 sbb faktor kerja..spjg kahwin ni mmg xterasa sgt as husband n wife because we are not living together..I repeat..we are not living together huhu..sometimes rasa mmg dah xsanggup dah but thinking bout future n everything... we have to sacrifice!! I really hope dpt la transfer b4 I deliver my baby ni..I need my husband 2 be with me n I want 2 be a good wife n I can't do that if kami duduk berasingan...kadang2 jealous jgk tgk pasangan yg g check up tu ada husband teman but me...selalu je sorg2 n everything bout the medical check up ke apa ke I have 2 do alone..sometimes rasa macam single mum plak..not that my husband xnak teman it just that dia kerja jauh n xkan nak mengada2 suruh dia apply cuti just utk teman buat medical check up every month..rite??? yes...exactly!!! Rasa sgt penat..my mind n body... but I have 2 be n look tough infront of everybody..It's really hard..rasa nak give up je but bila pegang my tummy n realize there is a tiny creature there that really needs me..I'm back again..try really hard 2 be a good mummy n human being so that dia ada contoh yg baik utk diikuti..

Please Allah..have mercy on me..tabahkan hatiku untuk menempuh saat2 sukar ini..Hope tomorrow will be better than today..Insya'allah...cross my fingers